Are you where you pictured you would be?

Photo: CC0 Public Domain, silverstylus Lately, I’ve been reading a book that has made me think deeply about my life and ask myself questions that I do not even understand all of the answers to just yet. I put out one of the questions I had thought of on Twitter earlier to get feedback from friends: When you were younger, is this where you pictured you would be in your life at this age? The wheels in my mind have been turning at a rapid pace. To answer the aforementioned question myself, that’s an easy, “No.” When I was younger, I presumed that I would be married, have children and be part of a happy family nucleus. That’s one of the things that I have dreamed of my entire life. I never imaged at the age of thirty-one, I would be sitting here even pondering that pesky question, that there would be the absence of tiny feet running across the floor or spills that didn’t need my attending to. Sure, I can ask myself if I took a wrong turn, or if I did something differently that maybe things would have been dissimilar for my future. However, we can’t control what happens to us… we can only control how we react and I think I’ve done a really great job with how I’ve reacted to the situations in my life. I have been through a lot but also I have learned from those experiences. I have done so much growing. I’ve taken a lot of risks. Not everything works out, but at least I can say that I’ve tried...

The Future Is A Beautiful Place

I want to quickly reflect on the last 365 days of my life. A LOT has happened–some good, some bad. Regardless, I’ve tried to use it all as a learning experience to better myself. While it is a rather old stat, Forbes projected that 8 out of 10 businesses fail in their first year. I am so incredibly proud of myself and the effort that I put into my work to see that my business has been around almost a year and a half and defied that statistic. As a woman, that is incredibly empowering and I am continuously grateful to the people who trust me to work hard to make their goals a reality. Aside from still being appreciative of my business, the greatest highlight of my year was without a doubt the culmination of several years of hard work and sacrifices, graduating from the University of Florida! I am officially a Gator for life. Walking across that stage was one of my most proud life moments. WOW! I will never forget that. I found it pretty curious that so many people that I have not seen in awhile had been asking me if I lost weight. I always brush it off because that’s never been my goal and I never stopped to really think about it. My focus has been on just improving myself and my own health so that I can be a better person. As I reflect on the two-a-days that I did for several months, the new routines I introduced into my arsenal, and the fact that I’ve had to clothes shop for pieces...

Soul Shaking Feel Good Tunes

I haven’t shared music with you guys in awhile so I made a pretty short list of some songs that I’ve been jamming out to recently. Clearly, they aren’t all new but I think that’s what is amazing about music… it can be timeless. One of my most favorite things in this world is when you feel a connection with the words, melodies, and beat and can just be in the moment. I’ve never felt anything else more powerful. So hopefully you may find a new song or two that resonates with...

Making Jack Happen

You may have attended or know someone who has attended one of the trendy wine and painting classes that have been popping up and spreading like wildfire. I have to admit that at first I didn’t get the concept. Then, however, I saw multiple friends posting pictures of their artistic renderings that looked–to my eyes–pretty darn professional. So, I decided that I wanted to take a class. My friend Amanda LOVES The Nightmare Before Christmas and found a location that was going to create a special Jack Skellington painting for the Halloween timeframe. I quickly volunteered to be her date. I documented some of the different stages that we did for the painting so maybe you can try to replicate it at home, or see why exactly the classes take two hours to complete–there are a lot of steps! Before we started, the teacher announced a social media contest. Well, being a social media professional I needed to participate. It turns out other people have friends who are much quicker at liking their images haha. That’s cool though because mine still had about 50+ likes in the time frame they gave us to collect in. My photo got third place which was still good enough for a prize. I won a t-shirt of Jack’s head and passed it to Amanda. Obviously, you start with a blank canvas. This is probably the most confident you’ll be during the entire process because you haven’t had the opportunity to mess anything up that isn’t really fixable. This particular place had a plate filled with all of the paint we would need for...

Scars are souvenirs you never lose

“Scars are souvenirs you never lose, the past is never far.” – Goo Goo Dolls, “Name” This past weekend I made my way to Orlando with the mission of finally getting the tattoo that I’ve wanted for nearly a decade in the city where my life changed. So many people tried scaring me away from doing it but I’m so happy that I finally decided that it needed to happen. Ten years to me, is a very big deal. Ten years ago I was laying on an operating table facing an uncertain future. I had struggles getting through everything post-surgery (most mental). So for me, realizing where I am now… I want to celebrate the road that led me to who I am today because I am so proud to be this woman. I know how strong I have become. When people learn that I’ve had an extra electrical pathway in my heart burned out, they immediately look at my chest to see a scar. They then of course act a bit suspicious and ask where my scar is. The scars from the ablation are on my legs–3 on one leg and 2 on the other. As time has passed, the scars have of course faded. I have a print out of my EKG from after my heart began functioning correctly. I took that to the tattoo shop and had them put one of the cycle’s on my ribs near my heart. The beat itself wasn’t perfect but to me it is beautiful because it was the very first time that my heart was learning to work without being...

It has been 10 years already

Ten years ago today, a doctor ran into my room telling me if they let me leave the hospital I could die walking up a flight of stairs. That memory is going to stay with me forever because it was the instant my life changed. I have experienced 3,650 days since that moment… all of them which I am incredibly thankful for. When you’re 21, you feel like you are invincible. You feel like your dreams are ahead of you. But then, hearing a doctor utter the words that you could potentially die because your heart isn’t working correctly, it feels like your world is crashing down around you so quickly. I was being faced with the possibility of never realizing my dreams. I think that is what fuels me today. I do not ever want to wonder if I was capable of making something happen because I have today, and I have right now—which is all I need. Going through such a traumatizing experience taught me that as cliche as it sounds, tomorrow is never promised so you HAVE to act on what you feel and what you want. I am beyond blessed. Please do not ever think that you are incapable of turning a bad hand that you are dealt into something amazing and fulfilling. Always be looking for a rainbow amidst the storm. There’s a quote that I stumbled on today that I feel really fits this situation, “Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness yet become something beautiful.” I can never express my gratitude enough for having...